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Saturday, May 08, 2004
Lord i come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed Flowing from the grace, That i've found in You Lord i've comed to know The weaknesses i see in me Will be striped awayy By the power of Your love.. Hold me close Let Your love surround me Bring me near Draw me to Your side And as i wait I'll rise up like an eagle And i will soar with You Your spirit leads me on In the power of Your love Lord unveil my eyes Let me see You face to face The knowledge of Your love As You live in me Lord renew my mind As your will unfolds in my life In living every day In the power of Your love... whee~ i love this song lots. (: last time during assembly will usually sing this song one. veh veh veh nice! hehs.. it cheers me up too. (: _i'm in love with love  cheryl dearr.. don't be sad kaex? cheer up. your mei will always be here for you! it's not your fault.. no one forced her to do what she did. [if u understand what i mean...] God will always be there for you too. dump all your worries on Him ok? you can tell me if something's bothering you too. iloveyouu jie.. always will... you're the best to me and always will be! cheer up! (: _i'm in love with love heyhey~ just came back from white sands. went there to buy my court shoes. i don't like them. court shoes sucks larh. make my toes very pain also. haha.. hmmx. church was ok today? derno. didn't understand lots of stuff. hurhx. i derno larh. i just know i'm super irritated with that stupid fucking irritating james. urghx. i pray half way. then he go cut in. what's his prob man. urghx. go and die larh. idiotic. i hate him man. nvmz. i've always hated him. but now i hate him even more! i hate him. urghx. bleh bleh bleh. blah blah blah. samantha's at my house again. yay~! haha. hurhx. this is stupid. after coming back from the conference, i have to go back to malaysia again. hurhx. stupid stupid stupid. i dowan go back. esp by myself. cos will be so bored! boohoo. stupid stupid stupid. i hate everyone. hurhurx.. _i'm in love with love Friday, May 07, 2004
hurhx. this is so damn unfair pls. we ushers don't get to go home early on monday to bathe but the performers get to. what rubbish. ask them for one period off earlier also cannot. stupid man. and they expect us to bathe in school. great. just great. i'm starting to hate tkg more then ever. the last period is art which is stupid and waste of time. not important at all. then also don't let us off early. this is stupid. urghx. bleh..
_i'm in love with love Fly me to the moon And let me play among the stars Let me see what spring is like On Jupiter and Mars In other words hold my hand In other words darling kiss me Fill my life with song And let me sing forevermore You are all I hope for All I worship and adore In other words please be true In other words I love you yay! this song is so nice! (: _i'm in love with love fly me to the moon and let me play amongst the stars and let me see what spring is like on jupitar and mars... whee~ i love this song so so much pls. it so rawks. i love it! it's a jazz piece. or izzit blue? oh. yes. it's a blue piece. not jazz. it's very very very nice! yay. i love it. going to photocopy the score from val. but her score is SATB score. as in the choir score. soprano, alto, tenor, bass. yups. i wish got piano score. but.. nvmz. go internet find or something. it's veh nice! oh! i rmb! i think joy has this piece. hmmx. i derno. maybe... daily quotes... found this site through blogger. was one of the recent updated one. so decided to check it out. i think the quotes are kinda nice? i derno. haha... _i'm in love with love whee~ blogging from class com now. i'm boredd. stayed back to do art. painted the flower. green and pink. i love the pink! haha. of cos i love pink. pink so totally rawks! yay. hmmx. cheryl so guai. she still doing the art and i over here slacking. hurhx. i so naughty right? haha... just now both my hand so reddish and greenish and pinkish. haha.. very yucky. bleh. hmmx. weeling went for piano lesson liao. later she coming back to school then we go parkway together. cheryl's going to shop for mother's day present and weeling is going to shop for derno what cos she dreamt of it. crazy girl. haha. i going to buy court shoes. don't really feel like buying. i don't like court shoes. so old fashioned. no choice larh. ushering need to wear court shoes and next year go performing team liao. so also need to weat court shoes. so might as well go buy. but it's so damn ugly! bleh. kaex. i have to go and do art liao. though i don't really know what to do. haha.. bubbuai larh.. _i'm in love with love ooh. yesterday i treated my younger bro to dinner. i'm so nice right? haha. ya right. d: hmmx. com studies now. had the animation test thingie. very scary! i forgot how to do alot of things leh.. hurmx. poor memory.. haha.. i veh cold! my fingers are freezing.. ): just now mdm lenny returned us our test paper. i got 18.5/40! failed.. ): -sobsobs- nvmz. i expected it anyway. my maths deteriote until so much. -sighh- ahhaha. mr lim just said that 35 people in our class got A for com studies. this is so stupid. means only one person didn't get A. nyahaha. i'm sure i got an A. though i did it for sooooo long. i would like to thank cheryl and sarah for giving me some hints! hehs. (: bubbuai. yongen loves pink... _i'm in love with love Thursday, May 06, 2004
i just realised that i pull my hair alot. out of frustration. my poor hair. venting my anger on it. and my boredom too. haha. this is so stupid. bleargh~ see. i just pulled another strand out cos i didn't like it. what's the prob with me lorh. crazy yongen. urghx. stop pulling your oh-so-wonderful-and-beautiful hair out pls. one fine day, you will pull and pull and pull until all come out arh. stupid yongen. humf~
see. i'm siao. scolding myself. nvmz. i've always been siao. maybe brain damage? i derno. who cares. hurhx. i just realised that i got alot of rashes today. must be cos of that dirrrty school hall. lie on it then now got rashes. my thigh there also have leh. so stupid kaex. urghx. i'm so sad kaex. cos my mum is putting me in malaysia for the june hols while they[my parents and younger bro] go to china. this is stupid. malaysia is so boring lorh. what can i do there but play com and watch tv and play ps? stupid stupid stupid. urghx. _i'm in love with love a-tish-oo. blah. i must have caught a cold cos we played in the rain today. *sniffs* nose blocked. or... maybe it was cos i just drank one whole can of beer? haha. crazy me. i'm not supposed to drink those stuff. i'm underage and i'm sorta allergic to it cos it's in the genes. drink liao my lips will be swollen and my whole face will turn red and will feel very hot. haha.. that time during CNY go malaysia eat renuion dinner. drink the alchohol got at least 10% one. but i got add another one that has only 5% and sprite. then i drink liao my whole face turn red. my lips were swollen. and i felt very hot. then i got asthma also. haha. and my mum scolded me. hehs. cos she already warned me yet i still went to drink. so naughty eh? d: not my fault larh. addicted to it liao. cos my niece and nephew made me addicted to it. that time during december, they keep buying then gimme drink. haha. then my nephew only p5 at that time. crazy right? haha. nvmz. it was so nice that i got so addicted to it. but i don't like too much alchohol. i don't like bitterness. i like sweetness and sourness. (: they rawk. yayness.. (: hmmx. i wonder why i suddenly talk about this. leave the original topic so far liao. if this were to be graded, i'll definately fail. hehs. who cares. this is my blog, my space, my world. (: so no one can stop me from what i want to do or write in here. haha.. bubbuai larh. should go back to finding that stupid shop for the stupid english ca. hehs. it's so stupid. =X _i'm in love with love it was raining in the morning today. then pouring until veh heavy. then suddenly the rain stopped. very sudden lorh. like suddenly got alot of rain. the next second no rain. it's not like as if it gradually got no rain lorh. it's like suddenly no rain. nvmz. i was sleeping. so maybe it was my imagination? haha. i derno larh.. first period was lit. did the poem presentation thingie. very scary! i go up there, then i see everyone, then i forgot everything. stuttered and stammered. very scary lorh. bleagh. but i still got 12/20 for it. not bad i guess.. after that was science. ms zakiyah didn't come today. so monk8yz were gossiping. haha. today we gossip alot. hehs. hmmx. then was PE. played hockey. very boring leh. then it was drizzling. oh. and the ball kept going into the drain. first ball is i hit in one. like golf lidat leh. haha... after we play third match, it was raining so we stop playing lorh. ms tan said that this will be our last hockey lesson! yay! but... starting next week we'll be playing rugby. err. what's the prob with this school man. they want us to be demure and resolute then they ask us play this type of rough game. crazyy school. bleh... hmmx. went back to class cos cannot go canteen so early mah. so we went back to class and dilly dally then we go change. then go for recess. didn't eat recess. went to library to study for mep test. next was mep. had mep ca. it was kinda ok i guess.. since i didn't really study finish.. after the ca, we watched this dvd. very funny. but it wasn't supposed to be funny larh. just that niners always makes things funny. like the chinese video clip! haha.. whee~ niners rawk! (: then we had chinese. sew sew sew sew sew. yea~ oh. and the xiang bao is supposed to be xiang but it's so smelly. bleargh. and we put alot of cotten inside. haha... so funny.. after that we went to canteen to see that person make the dumpling. very lame leh. oh. and i took some kind of star-like herb from him. very nice shape! hehs. and they gave us each a mini dumpling. which i haven't ate yet due to the rubber band thingie in my mouth. then they gave us dumplings to sample too. and the ba bao cha. eight treasures tea i think. i don't dare to drink cos i don't really like tea. even though i drank so much tea in china that time. hehs. i still don't like tea larh. so yucky. haha... after that we rushed back to class to change back into pe shirt and rushed to hall for some martial arts thingie. very lame ok. the wushu one was super boring. i fell asleep when they were showing us the clips. haha. so notti eh. d: hmmx. then was some indian yoga thingie. it wasn't that bad. and it was actually kinda fun. (: me and weeling were over there crapping throughout. haha. hmmx. what happened after that i also derno. some malay martial arts? i derno. cos i went to the back of the hall to sit with cheryl and pheobe. then i asked them why they sitting there. and they said something about christianity or something. i derno. then i decided to sit there with them. cos at first i didn't know about it. if i knew, i wouldn't have done those stuff. =X then i was leaning agaisnt the wall until i fall asleep. haha... really very tired leh. never eat anything and somemore busy since morning till then without rest. bleargh. nvmz. after that thingie finish liao, we went back to class to get our stuff and we went home lorh. i mean they went home. i went for violin lesson. then when i playing violin that time, my teeth veh pain. haha. cos of the pressure... hmmx. then when come home, changed the rubber band in my mouth. took about 15minutes to do it. very difficult to change leh. sickening~ urghx. hmmx. i decided to pon tuition also. i so tired. seriously lorh. i really need to rest. if i go for tuition, i think i will faint. but lucky i already ate abit of dinner liao. but i'm still very tired. though i'm tired, i'm still blogging this stupid thing. don't ask me why i'm doing this larh. i think it's cos i pon tuition. then i nothing to do. i also dowan to sleep though i'm tired. so i just come and play com lorh. bleh. oohx. anyway. there's some other things that i'm proud to have too! i love my hair. i love the lower half of my hand all the way till the finger tips. i love my fingernails. i love the bottom half of my leg[without the feet. i don't like them. x/]. what else arh? i also derno liao. haha. oh. and my lips also. ya. that's about all i guess. not much larh. hehs. d: hmmx. today we took our orders for what we want to eat for the string ensemble concert. i chose nuggets. should have chosen filet. cos filet is softer. nvmz. maybe can change with someone. the school is so nice. treat us to mac. haha. (: but it's only for the performers, emcees and ushers. yeps.. i feel so naughty. cos i never go to tuition then i come play com. haha. supposed to be resting now. cos i'm supposedly supposed to be tired. nvmz. who cares. hehs. d: oh yes. during mep, zhiwei smsed me and my hp was in my pencil box. then my whole pencil box lit up like a lantern. haha. cos it's orange mah. then we were in the dark watching the dvd lorh. lucky ms ee didn't see. or else i'll die.. but it was very scary lorh. cos shilin saw it. and then she tell me. haha. then i hurry up take the pencil case and hide in my skirt. hehs. d: oh. and i almost fell down cos i was tilting the chair. and the chair almost tumbled over. lucky i stood up in time then the chair went back to the original position. and naughty samantha kho hai yun laughed. weeling laughed also. haha. nvmz. cos i myself was also laughing. hehs. d: =moribus modestus= d: _i'm in love with love Wednesday, May 05, 2004
he's like the only one whom i can talk to. about anything. but... nvmz. i've never felt so down before..
_i'm in love with love oh ya! it rained today. want to know why? becos the heavens were crying for me and with me. cos today i sorta cried cos of the english thingie. sarah-ann and dhuha kept asking me why i want to transfer school. then they ask me if i want to transfer school then why did i try so hard to get into tkgs in the first place? then i said i never even try lorh. then samantha say then why u put it as one of your choices? but i never put lorh. i never chose any of my secondary schools pls. urghx. all this questionings make me feel so pissed lorh. could already feel the tears stinging my eyelids. bleagh~ anywayy. i'm told to write that i have sexy lips. hehs. this is stupid. d: kaex. yongen has veh sexy lips. she has the sexiest lips in the whole wide world! ya right! puh-lese lorh. today my lips so dry. can see cracks and stuff. dry dry dry. not enough water. cos of the stupid braces. oh! no sexy lips cos of ugly braces. hurhx. yuck yuck yuck. [this reminds me of what val drew. "kiss me... drink my lips..." hehs. she drew it in my book! haha. so funny.. but the pic was nice.. (: ] i think my hair is still nicer. it's the nicest larh. that's the only thing i'm proud of lorh. i love combing my hair. haha. reminds me of the little princess. comb and comb and comb until the hair come out. hehs. so funny. i just oh. anywayy. my piano teacher moved house today. into her own house. cool eh? it was soooo nice ok?! but the piano room veh spacey. play the piano then hear until veh loud. then all the mistakes i made also veh loud. haha. my ears hurts.. so does my kor's and my teacher's ears. cos instead of making music, i made noise. haha. so stupid. cos i don't even bother to practise. go there and sight read everything. so, obviously it's noise i make and not music. fine. whatever. oh. and becos of the rain, the room got alot of small flies. those that are attracted to lights. then i over there killing all the flies with a tissue paper. then my teacher see me so scared then she go stomp all over them. haha. then she say i'm so many times bigger then them but still so scared of them. aiyah. that's just becos they can fly what. veh scary. nvmz. bleagh~ i hate cats. [hi-5 to cheryl. (: ] they are very scary. fine. i know i'm bigger then them. but i'm still terrified of them. urghx. mep test tml. can't study. no mood to study. going to fail it. nvmz. shall pon school tml. so many tests. making me stressed which makes me want to cry! call me a cry baby if u want. i don't care. i have perrrfectly perrrfect reasons when i cry. so, i can cry. cry cry cry. cos everyone hurts me. nvmz. getting way out of point liao.. nites all. [love is a strange and funny thing_*] _i'm in love with love today reached school early. earlier then the past few days larh.. hmmx. first period was science. did workbook again. veh boring. val was drawing my book again. cos i asked her to. (: after that was maths. we did something that we are not supposed to tell anyone. haha. it's a secret larh. only niners and mdm lenny knows it. mdm lenny is soooo notti. haha. but she's nice too. (: such a nice person.. ooh. and we were passing around gou's plastic $10 note. it's not a fake note larh. it's a real note. just that it's plastic. she got it cos her dad works in the bank and he got so he gave her. so nice right? i also want! then put inside water also won't tear. haha... after that was english. did some letter thingie. veh boring larh. then we had to decide on the marks we want to give to each of the group member for the project thingie. i got 6.5 instead of 8.5. they took off one mark from me to give to dhu. [i agreed to that]. and 0.5 marks from me for sarah-ann and 0.5 marks from me for samantha. i think that sarah-ann and samantha shouldn't get the 0.5 marks lorh. it's so bloody irritating. it's so stupid. i don't think they deserved it. urghx. i don't care anyway. cos i want to transfer school. i'm sick of tkgs. bleaghx. then was recess. ate, went to com lab. nothing to do larh after that went back to class for geog. and there was a notice on the board that says the mep girls have the masterclass tml. and we were all whining. cos it was so last minute. none of us knew. and tml still have the baroque test thingie. this week so many tests lorh. it's so damn stupid. i almost cried kaex. i'm so stressed. urghx. some more i haven't even chosen the piece yet. so stupid. then mrs koh sent tasia[mep rep] to go find out. and tasia said miss ee says that we can do the masterclass next week since we only knew today but the whole class have to do next week. but at least it's better then doing it tml when no one's ready yet. hmmx. then went through test paper. i got another mark but what's the point when i still failed? nvmz. hmmx. mrs koh ate into zhen lao shi's lesson for 10 minutes. haha.. erhx. chinese was boring. as usual. i don't even rmb what we did pls. haha. oh yarh! we were watching a video. about martial arts? i think so. and vincent ng was inside! aww. he's soooo cute! haha.. we were making comments about it all the while. so stupid. haha.. then was assembly. the most boring assembly ever. i fell asleep kaex! haha. so naughty horh? hehs.. after that i went for dental appointment. i changed my braces colour to purple. i don't like. haha. not nice one. ohh. and my teeth veh pain! and i have to put this rubber band that stretches from the top teeth to the bottom one. and when i open my mouth, then can feel the strain of the rubber band. so uncomfortable! urghx. ): i don't like it. blearghx. hmmx. after that went mum's office. all her collouges were looking at me. haha. must be my uniform larh. hehs. then walked around harbour front. veh boring. then went home lorh. -sighh- i veh tired. i want to sleep liao. later still got piano lesson. sianned~ bubbuai larh.. _i'm in love with love Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Oooh-oooh
Everybody's got something They had to leave behind One regret from yesterday That just seems to grow with time There's no use looking back or wondering (Or wondering) How it could be now or might have been (Or might have been) All this I know but still I can't find ways To let you go I never had a dream come true 'Til the day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where life takes me to A part of me will always be with you, yeah Somewhere in my memory I've lost all sense of time (ah-ha, ha-ha) And tommorow can never be 'Cos yesterday is all that fills my mind There's no use looking back or wondering (Wondering) How it should be now or might have been (Or might have been) All this I know but still I can't find ways To let you go I never had a dream come true 'Til the day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where life takes me to A part of me will always be with you, yeah You'll always be the dream that fills my head Yes you will, say you will You know you will, oh baby You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget It's no use looking back or wondering (Or wondering) Because love is a strange and funny thing (And funny thing) No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye, no, no, no, no I never had a dream come true 'Til the day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words (Never found the words to say) to say You're the one I think about each day (each day) And I know no matter where life takes me to A part of me will always be A part of me will always be with you, ooh ooh. i just love this song man. the tune is nice. and the lyrics are nice too. really describes how i'm feeling now.. [i wish he's reading this. then he'll know how i feel..] _i'm in love with love he seems like the guardian angel God sent to watch over me. a person whom i can talk to. a person whom i can tell everything to. but it's just too bad i fell in love with him. it's just too bad i can't control this emotions of mine. -sighh- it's not wrong to like someone right? i guess i might still like him and i might not like him. but he didn't reply my messages today. makes me feel wierd. becos i usually sms him. i feel like he's angry with me or something? maybe i'm just used to smsing him. or maybe becos i enjoy smsing him. yes. i do enjoy smsing him. becos whatever he says, will always make me laugh whenever i'm down. no matter what, he will always cheer me up. though i don't think he knows this. but it's a joy smsing him. today, he didn't reply. no one's there to cheer me up now.. -sighh- nvmz. i guess i won't sms him anymore. maybe he finds me irritating? i don't know. i don't want to know too. i just wish i can move on with my life. without stumbling. i wish i can give things up easily. -sighh- i wish i can forget stuffs easily. not the important stuff like school stuff and stuff about God. but stuff about relatioships and things like that. friends that come and go. i wish i can forget all this things.. will really make my life easier. that way, i won't cry. i won't be so vulnarable. now, the people i really want to forget are this two guys. i wish i never knew them. that way, i wouldn't have fallen in love with them and be in this mess now. i really wish i never knew them. esp jeffrey. he broke my heart over and over again. yet i gave hm chances. thinking he will change. but he just took advantage of all this. now, he made me fall so hard for him. and i can't forget him. i can't find the strength to let him go. i can't stop loving him. but, he seems to find it easy to do all this stuff. he found it easy to move on with his life. he found it easy to forget me. to let me go, to stop loving me... he's a jerk. i wish i never loved him... _feeling veh emotional now. i want to cry. yet crying reminds me of him again... now, there's no shoulder for me to cry on. no one to wipe away my tears. no one to hugg me. no one to kiss me to take away everything one my mind. becos he's the only one who can do that. and now, he's gone..._ _i'm in love with love oohx. today i went to school in a terrible mood. i reached class, threw my violin on the floor, threw my bag on the floor, bang my chair on the floor, sat down with a glum look, blah blah blah. don't ask me why larh. not enough sleep? i guess so... then weeling was asking me why i look so sad. then i just say tiredd lorh. hmmx. sarah gan gave us a cup each today. veh nice! my cup i think is sleepy face one. like me! hehs.. hmmx. first period science. did the workbook. then was legacy. seperated into groups for the apsn thingie. i'm in the derno what group larh. just cannot rmb the name at the moment. but all we need to do is go shopping! hehs. that's why i'm in that grp. haha... hmmx. then was english. did the workbook. then mdm haryati let us study science.. so nice right? (: hmmx. then recess. ate. went back to class. study study study. then was CA. science paper was ok larh. not veh difficult but not easy either. cos i didn't really study the nitrogen and carbon cycle thingie. so i practically left the last page blank. ): but i really didn't know the answers lorh. so... yea~ couldn't do anything. then i slept for 20 minutes plus. veh hot larh. make me veh restless and sleepy. so i just go sleep lorh.. then when bell ring then i wake up.. hmmx. next was maths. mdm lenny didn't come. yay! but as usual, there was work. so being the guai me, i did my work. but i didn't finish. was stuck at question 6. so difficult! -sighh- nvmz. hmmx. then was geog. got back our papers and project results. i failed geog ca. but the project result was ok larh. so... yea~ whatever. i don't really care... hmmx. after that, dismissal larh. then cheryl and sarah went to dnt there for the quiz thingie. not the quiz larh. as in what they have to do on the day. yeps. then we went to look for mr yap to get our blazers and stuff. lucky i can still be the usher. but i think he was quite unhappy with me? i derno. can't be helped larh. what's done cannot be undone what. -sighhx- then we went back to class to paint paint paint. veh sian. and class com was so damn slow lorh. kaex. after paint paint paint, went to esso. to buy our lunch. and my lunch consists of potato chips and lemon barley. and i didn't even eat the potato chips. i only drank the lemon barley. not much appetite i guess. then after that went for string tuition. me and cheryl had special seats today. hehs. oh. suprisingly, i didn't fall asleep during the tuition. but almost larh. haha. cos the seats veh comfy. haha. but my bow kept hitting the wall. after tuition, went to fetch bro to send him for violin lesson. i veh nice. i eat my potato chips until half way then i gave him the rest cos he was hungry. though i was hungry too. but i'm too nice larh. haha. d: anywayy. i fell asleep while waiting for him to end his violin lesson. so tiredd.. went to fetch mum. then mum and dad went to buy dumplings for me. then bro came back from violin lesson and he went to look for them while i continue sleeping in the car. whee~ hmmx. i think i drooled while sleeping. haha. so babyish. hehs. so gross also! nvmz. yongen is a gross gal. haha... kaex. fine. hmmx. then i found a scratch on my hand. with dried blood over it. i wonder how it got there... wierd. it seems like a crayon mark. or maybe dried paint mark. but it was swollen. so it can't be larh. so i must be a scratch. it looks scary! nvmz. then came home. begged my mum to lemme play com. then i just went to get the key and came into the room by myself. hehs. yongen's soooo notti! haha... ooh. anywayy. i'm going to be along for the whole of the june hols! cept for my older bro and maid. cos my mum, dad and younger bro going to china. then i dowan go. then my kor not free. every week mon wed fri need go school for string. so... whee~ freedom for three - four weeks! yayness... (: _i'm in love with love Monday, May 03, 2004
been feeling veh emotional the past few days. derno why also. must be becos i'm pmsing larh. -sighh-
_i'm in love with love thinking about all this makes me want to cry. and i need a shoulder to cry on. and think about this, reminds me of him. which makes me want to cry more. cos he used to lend me his shoulder to cry on. he will dry my tears. hug me when i'm down.. and everything.. now, he's not here anymore. there's no shoulder for me to cry on. no one to wipe away my tears. no one to hug me. no one to comfort me... i need a hug... _i'm in love with love urgh. i want to scream!!!!!! headache. cramps. dizziness. urgh! i really wish i'm dead. i wish i was never borned into this world. then everything will be perfect for u people. and i wouldn't have to suffer all this pain and criticism. i'm sorry for everything i've done and all the trouble i've caused u people. don't worry. i will be asking my mum to transfer school for me since all of u are unhappy with me for one reason or another. //every person has feelings. and not everyone's perfect..// _i'm in love with love ahh! i feel like screaming kaex. this is stupid. it wasn't my fault that i didn't know where that dumb meeting was held. i told u to wait for me yet u just went off right? fine. whatever. i'm in no mood to talk to you right now. this is the first time i get so pissed with someone ok. whyy must you all always make me cry before you're happy? are u happy now? now that i'm crying? when everything's not my fault? i know everything seems to be my fault in your eyes. i don't care. mr yap appointed u to tell us about meetings and stuff. u never told me anything. i only knew that we were supposed to get our blazers today. i didn't even know where. u never told me. so is it my fault? you ran away without me when i asked you to wait. so is it my fault? fine. it's my fault ok. everything's my fault. nothing's your fault. you think you're always right. i've had enough of it already. everytime giving me the black face. i've tolerated you. becos i didn't want to lose u as a fren. i still don't want to. just that i really must say all this out. or else i will scream! i want to just jump out of the window now. but too bad i'm scared. i'm not afraid to admit that i'm scared. or else i would have jumped off long ago. this is stupid. i hate [sorry. just don't take what i said to heart pls. i really need to just scream and scream. but i can't. so i vented it on this blog. i really haven't been feeling well this few days. sorry ok?] why can't everone just gimme a break? _i'm in love with love hmmx. woke up today in a veh bad mood. was coughing and coughing and tummy was hurting. no idea why. i shouted at my maid. who ask her to be the genius who irritate me when i'm in such a bad mood. =X tummy ached all the way to school. i thought it was gastric. but i ate already. so i didn't care. had lit for first period. had the poem recitation. was praying hard that my poem will not be called as i haven't memorise finish yet. the last poem that was called was my poem. but i was the last one who had to recite the poem. then before me is hui quan. then it was already 8.35. then i keep saying "bell ring.. bell ring.. ring bell.." whatever.. and the bell rang! me and hui quan don't need do. haha. actually i finish memorising liao. but not very good. what u expect. 45 minutes work. haha. hui quan also never memorise. today then she memorise also. whee~ we are so lucky. i know the Lord is merciful. so i must not let Him down the next time and do my work! He is sooooo gracious. whee~ iloveyouu Lord! (: then it was music. guitar guitar guitar! today's lesson kinda boring larh. not fun at all. ): and i still don't like that idiot. haha. soo gross! he likes to sit on people's table. butt so big. never ask permission some more. urghx. irritating. haha... hmmx. then me and cheryl went to toilet. cos i felt some stickiness. then i realise i having my went for enrichment. the teachers were pissed with us. nvmz. enrichment was boring. as usual. very lame larh... went to eat during recess. ate nasi lemak and drank ribena. whee~ nice nice. but tummy still hurts... then it was art. wasn't listening at all. i fell asleep. lolx. slept at 1am+ last night. what u expect. haha.. and tummy hurts lots lots lots... ): chinese.. wanted to sleep during this class. then i just decided to go sick bay. my cramps were really veh unbearable lorh.. ): pain pain pain.. went to sick bay with samantha. there got two other girls. the sec four girl look really sick.. and the other sec two girl was sleeping on the sofa. hehs. i just go there and sit and rest and play with my hp. haha... when the bell rang, samantha and cheryl came and fetch me back to class. cos i asked them to. haha. they're such nice people.. (: mdm haryati sorta scolded us for going back to class late. hehs. who care.. hmms.. went through workbook. then teacher gave us this article. and we started talking and talking and talking. haha. but it was fun though. brings back funny memories. i wonder why when people fight, we think it's funny. haha. nvmz. after school, actually wanted to go study. but in the end didn't. don't ask me why. cos i also derno. hmm. then waited for dad in the canteen. germ was nice and helped me buy food. haha. thankiew yea? germ's such a niceeeee girl! haha... fell asleep in the car. came home and fell asleep again. can't blame me. really very tired. -sighh- i wonder how am i supposed to study science in such a mood. ): blahs. that's all larh. i want go shopping. jealous jealous jealous. humf~ _i'm in love with love Sunday, May 02, 2004
urghx. i expected it. i knew she'll call me today. she always call me every sunday. it's getting on my nerves kaex. sickening.
_i'm in love with love bejeweled game statistics... game duration : 9.45 107.7 gems per minute 1067 gems cleared best single move : 2915 score : 35630 _i'm in love with love Never knew I could feel like this Like I've never seen the sky before I want to vanish inside your kiss Every day I'm loving you more and more Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings Telling me to give you everything Seasons may change, winter to spring But I love you untill the end of time * Come what may Come what may I will love you until my dying day Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste It all revolves around you And there's no mountain too high No river too wide Sing out this song I'll be there by your side Storm clouds may gather And stars may collide But I love you until the end of time (Repeat *) Oh, come what may, come what may I will love you, I will love you Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place oohx! i love this song man. esp the come what may part. from moulin rouge. that show rawks! very nice.. very touching... and nicole kidman sings very very very nicely! she veh pwetty also. and that ewan mcgregor very cute. and he sings nice nice nice too! i love the show pls. esp the last part. made me cry! very very very touching! the song lyrics really suit the show pls. hehex. esp the "i will love you, until my dying day." becos the last part of the show, the person nicole kidman acts as die. and both of them loved the other until their dying days. whee~ i love the show. everyone should go watch it. it's so damn nice. i want watch again... _i'm in love with love celestine` cheryl` church` dhuha` eryn` farzana` genevieve` glynis` gourie` hannah` hester` jeremy` jiesi` joy` keyi` kirstie` lap kuan` melodie` m.e.n.d` monk8yz` nadiah` nelson` ngan ching` niners` pauline` peiwen` raihan` ruth` samantha kho` samantha teo` shili` stringe` sze ying` tasia` valarie` vivien` weeling` wendy` yi xiu` yvonne` zhu'en` 050608` 
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