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Saturday, May 22, 2004
i really want to die. really really really want to die. i don't see the point of me living anymore. when i'm crying every single day. what's the point if i'm living just to be hurt. i really don't know...
i should never have picked up that call. i never should have. never.... _i'm in love with love  blah blah blah. not another dream of him again. this is really getting way out of hand lerh. how am i suppose to forget him lidat? bleh. stupid stupid stupid. nvmz. today i woke up at 1pm. and i slept at 11pm last night. which means that i slept for 14 hours today. wah lau. pig arh. haha. then when i woke up, my head very groggy. then i saw alot of stars infront of me. hehe. my daddy say i very enjoy life. wake up then can eat lerh. hehe. oh no! i just remembered! i didn't drink finish my can of beer and i left it on the table! brb arhx.. okies. back lerh. hmmz. i think i'm a very bad sis. i offered the beer to my younger bro. and he so excited lorh! haha. nvmz. crazy guyy. i gtg lerh. have to go bathe liao. going to church soon. bubbuai! final words: I WANT MY BOTTLE OF SAND BACK!! [nvmz. don't mind me. i'm crazy. hehs. byeee.] _i'm in love with love Friday, May 21, 2004
hurhurx. i have a bruise on my elbow. cos just now i accidentally hit it against the corner of the scanner. and i hit it hard ok! it really hurts lots. esp when i'm doing the "0" position thingie. apply pressure to the elbow. pain pain! sobsobs.
oh yes. and i today just realised that i have 3 scars on my hand. cos last time i went to use a pen knife and cut myself. becos he went to cut himself first. then i thought not sharp. i go and cut 3 times, thinking that i will only get reddish skin. after awhile, i suddenly saw that there was hardened blood on it. so shocked! bleh. it was so stupid. and now, the scars are quite obvious yet not quite. it just look like scratches. cos it's whitish. and it contrast with my skin. not really la. just abit lighter then my skin colour. i saw it in a particular angle. hmmz. maybe that's just becos it's on the other side of my hand where i can't really see. i derno la. -sobsobs- my beautiful hand... disfigured! so sad! final words: I WANT MY BOTTLE OF SAND BACK! _i'm in love with love just came back from school. candle making class was ok i guess. buden the wax keep dropping onto my hand. hot hot hot! bleh. i think the pink was very nice! hehe. i now put inside my mini fridge to shrink so that i can take it out. bleh. hmmz. didn't watch the dance competition. only watched 2/9's one. it was ok la. not very special. suitable for MTV but not for dance competitions. 2/3 won the competition. 2/8 got second and 2/2 got 3rd. i don't understand why 2/3 won. i saw their encore la. it was quite normal lorh. i really don't understand why! nvmz. congrats 2/3! (: oh yes. cheryl tan is a very notti girl. she go pour water on me and on the floor and out of the fourth level onto the first level. i think the water hit a few people. so notti! unlike ME. so GUAI. haha. xp she is so unguai. x) hmmz. i wonder who called me just now. speak to me until so polite sia. call me sister yong en. i feel so wierd being called lidat. haha. =X bleh. i going to call someone lerh. bubbuai. [fuck u. spank u. freak u. shit u.] _i'm in love with love whee~ it's com lesson now. new teacher! hehs. no more *clap clap*. haha. xp oohz. his name is daffy. and i shouted deffy duck! haha. bleh. hmmz. yest weeling said if i pierce my ear 3 and 2 then will look very lian. don't suit the demure looking me. haha. but that was the purpose of piercing my ear mah. hehs. i dowan people to think i'm the guai guai type. then when i do wrong stuff, people will keep on scolding me. bleh. so whatever lorh. oohx. yest we got back our music papers. we did that in term 1 la. but it was in the term 2 marks. i got 3rd in class! gou got same marks as me. sarah gan bang bang got 1st lorh. 100% leh! so good! anne got 2nd. with 95%. me and gou got 93%. cool eh. (: hmmz. ms zakiyah was talking to herself again during science. next was chinese. had tingxie. practically left all blank. whatever lorh. haha.. hmmz. maths.. mdm lenny wants to talk to mummy. talk lorh. in the end also won't talk about science. they will just talk and talk and talk and talk until me having a bf. whatever lorh. bleh. blah. when i was eating today, i suddenly choked and cough and there was rice in my mouth! hehs. lucky i didn't spurt it out. unlike cheryl! that time she spurt out on me! haha. hmmz. i think the choir girls sang very nicely! and we mrs koh said that we get to go for upper sec assembly later. i think it's cos she's the FM of an upper sec class and she also want to see. so cool! i think we're the only class that get to go. whee~ but i want to play taboo! nvmz. the assembly will be so much more cooler! hehs. did the programme for the project REAP thingie. hmmz. i think almaas should have her mouth sealed permanently. she was over there talking nonsense. haha. crazy almaas. (: after that is com studies which is now lorh. i think micromedia flash is very cool.. (: 5 more minutes to assembly. better go lerh. or else later late. bleh. bubbuaix.. _i'm in love with love Thursday, May 20, 2004
morning came school and put down bag and went to practise for busking. bleh. was kinda piss off la. nvmz. shan't say.
ran and ran and ran to assembly ground. when we finish practising, the bell already rung. cos when the bell rings, means we have to be at attention in the assembly ground. we were so damn late lorh! but lucky today morning got the busking. so assembly started late. -phew- after assembly had lit. so boring lorh. bleh. wasn't even listening to what mrs lim was saying.. bleh bleh bleh. hmmz. after lit was science. went to science lab and did science practical. it was fun! pop pop pop! (: after science was PE. didn't do much except run 2 rounds around the school. that's for me la. cos i was let off early to prepare for busking later.. busking was terrible i tell you! bleh. hmmz. kerri played the wrong line at one part. and she was so near the mike! bleh. nvmz. and the last bar all of us screwed up. hehe. bleh. i'm starting to detest my violin. though i love it's toning! (: was late for MEP. but whatever. cos ms ee didn't come. slacked around in the mep room. weeling was putting ginger into my ear hole. or is it garlic? i derno la. hmmz. played around with the piano and violin and VOICE. hehe. i sang swing swing out of tune. purposely. hehe. then was listening to discman and composing songs. whee~ i love to write lyrics! buden i don't like to think of the tune.. haha. after two periods of after that was this china PRC playing the dizi i think. she play very well lorh. (: after that was dance. only one person smiled. haha. that was the 1/6 girl that did ushering with me. she very pretty leh. and i like what she was wearing! pink pink pink! that pink was so damn nice pls! (: i think she's a very nice girl. hehe. hmmz. then it was the music niche pupils izzit? i derno.. hehe. then was ms cheam's ballet piece. little red riding hood. i think she dance very nice. (: oh! and mr zaini was the big bad wolve. hehe! erhz. then was the choir girls? i derno. they sang "can u feel the love tonight." the song in lion king. nice nice! (: after school had the dnt quiz. so boring! bleh. i think it's very lame. i wonder why they made it compulsory. mep students don't even take dnt and we still have to go and see the quiz. so stupid! bleh. after that was the sec one dance competition. they dance very well! all except for 1/2. i think they're the worse. no offense la. but it was very messy. and i think if dance right, shouldn't wear shorts. wear jeans is the best. hmmz. 1/5 won. theirs was very nice! i think the song was bounce? i derno. the dance cheorography was very well done. (: 1/1 was good too. but they got 2nd. 1/8 got 3rd. i think all the classes were good. (: but tml, 2/9 will rock the school! go go 2/9! whee~ after that went for violin. i almost fell asleep playing the scales! haha. silly yongen. hehs. hmmz. i'm tired. i still have tuition afterwards. boring la. bleh. okk. i better go and bath now or else i will be late. ciao~ _i'm in love with love Wednesday, May 19, 2004
i think i'm going to pierce two more holes in my left ear. and maybe one on the top of my right ear. so means altogether left will have 3 and right will have 2. but the right one not confirm. cos i'm scared! at the top leh. the bone there. eew. haha..
_i'm in love with love today morning very funny. when i went to class, i walked to the wrong seat! haha. cos i'm used to going to my own seat. until cheryl told me. hehs. i was laughing like siao... bleh. after putting down my bag, went to the prefect's den the area to practice the song for busking.. it's quite nice la. but not long enough leh. bleh.. hmmz. during the morning assembly, it was very funny! prefect: school attention. the school song. everyone: -snickers- -mumbles- [quietens down] prefect: school attention. the national anthem. then blah blah blah. hmmz. during the second part of the annoucements also very funny. mrs kong: .....wear long hair........ everyone: huh?! -mumbles- -laugh laugh- haha. it was very funny leh. ooh! and she said it twice! haha.. bleh. i think the teachers need check ups sia. esp ms zakiyah. she always talks to herself. i heard that people who talk to themselves are mad. hmmz. maybe we should just call the IMH and ask them come check the teachers if they're mad anot. almost everyday in class talk to themselves. [hehs. that's just becos they teach teach teach and no one listens. haha!] hmmz. maybe i'm the one who needs to go for a check up. haha! whateverness yongen. oh yes! i have a new name. i'm called neg noy new. haha. figure it out yourselves bah. hehe. bleh. english actually we supposed to do the summery thingie. buden we dowan so we decided to do debate. and it turned out to be a failure. haha! but it was kinda fun la. i derno la. bleh. after recess was geog. played the taboo game! hehe. taboo! it was so fun! hehe. laugh until cough sia. hehs. blah. chinese was boring as usual. hmmz. drew lots to see presentation when. i drew 14. then shilin wanted to change with me. then change lorh. buden she abit siao la. she drew 23 which was last. then she want to change. crazy girl. haha. but at least now i'm the last! woohoo! (: had the public speaking thingie during assembly. so boring! at least i didn't fall asleep. last year i fell asleep. haha! buden anne got consolation! sad sad. but at least she was one of the final fives. go anne, the chairman! hehe. oh yes! mdm khoo made us do some stupid stretching exercise. ali baba. haha! that was the song she played.. so stupid lorh. five five five five, ten ten ten ten, punch punch punch punch, bend down and smell your fren's butt!, knee up and show everyone what's underneave your skirts!... blah. that wasn't what she said la. except for the five and ten. haha. but that was what we did lorh. so funny. hehe. it was super lame pls! oh yes. the sec twos get to go off first today. and we went off like 5 mintues early! whee~ yayness.. (: bleh. actually supposed to stay back to practice for tml's busking. buden in the end didn't. so stupid lorh! becos my dad came cos he didn't know. then i ask him to go home cos i derno what time end. in the end never even stay back! bleh. make my dad come for nothing and i had to go home myself. so toot pls! urghx. whatever. hmmz. fell asleep in the bus. then i woke up when reaching my stop. so scary! luckiy i didn't miss it sia. hmmz. there was once when i woke up then just nice reach the stop. never missed my stop before. haha. lucky me. bleh. feeling really tired la. later got piano class. so sian! haven't bought my theory papers yet. cos everytime go then no money to buy. nvmz. i just sent an sms to my teacher ask her to help me buy. i think she's now at yamaha. hmmz. i derno la. bleh. i want to sleep lerh. tired! haha. bubbuai.. _i'm in love with love Tuesday, May 18, 2004
just came home from tm. i walked from pasir ris interchange back home and i took 1 whole hour instead of the usual 15 minutes. blah. i just went to the places hmmz. saw nicholas at tm just now. i mean that guy from my church whom lynette blah. i didn't pierce my ear. i was so scared lorh! haha. next time then pierce bah.. hmmz. i'm very sweaty! bleh.. rashes all over my face lerh. haha.. oh yes! rashes reminds me of something. me and cheryl are both pinK! hehe. pink rawks la. (: byex. i'm boredd. _i'm in love with love whee~ it's geography now and we're in com lab 1. hmmz. i'm so naughty sia. play com.. hehes.. blahx. going to pierce my ear after school. i'm scared!! but i want to pierce la.. hehes. but i really very scared. maybe i'll back out the last minute.. hehs. whee~ had our last exam for this term. (: maths.. but the results are for term 3.. yupp. going to play for busking on thursday. so scary! only got the score today and have to learn by tml. but it's kinda easy la. i don't think it'll last 10 minutes lorh. i don't even think it'll last for 5 minutes.. bleh. science was actually fun todayy. had the practical thingie.. had sex ed during legacy. hmmz. gourie was saying something and she suddenly said old women wearing testubes on the beach. blah. so funny. hehes. hmmz. learned alot during sex ed. dirrrrty stuff la. haha.. it was very gross and we kept laughing. esp the guys erection thingie. lols. xp blahs. english was so boring sia. nvmz.. ooh! we changed seats. hurhx. i don't like my now the seat. i'm going to stare out of the window into the corridor from now on cos i'm so used to looking that direction. and mdm haryati said "it's ok.." what rubbish! haha. very lame. and beside me is val and phoebe. er jie and si jie. people say i very lucky but i think i very unlucky cos both of them are CC members. -wails- cannot eat and use hp anymore. bleh. and anne is so near me. she will be able to see what i'm doing. ): sad sad la. blah. recess. ate nugget and chicken wings.. whee~ nice nice. but chicken wings were kinda cold la.. bleh. hmmz. ca. maths. kinda easy. ms yeo set one mah. bleh. maths.. mdm lenny didn't come.. was listening to discman. haha. so notti. xp geog.. now lorh. bleh. crapping in cheryl's entry.. haha. we are just so sian! hehs. bubbuai la. better listen to class. or else later teacher catch then die liao.. haha. xp _i'm in love with love Monday, May 17, 2004
yayness.. mum's back from ntuc which means water rise! cheryl.. jealous? hehe. xp
i'm hungryy. i shall go eat now. bubbuaix! (: _i'm in love with love my rubber band snapped again. bleh. so stupid. just now i locked myself in. haha. it was so stupid lorh. i slammed the door very hard and the door was stucked and i couldn't come out. haha. so lame. and i used all my strength and it opened lorh. but really very hard to open leh. and i was so scared! haha.. bleh. i'm so damn pissed off with him. x/ _i'm in love with love fuck u la. urghx. [sorry for the vulgarity used.] _i'm in love with love hello hello hello hello hello! hehs. that was what mdm seah said today during art. she said it very fastly la. haha. then we were all laughing at her. so rude.. haha. =X hmmz. i'm boredd. i want go PP leh. so sad my dad already came to fetch me. then i got no time to tell him i going PP. so sad! i want go pierce my ear. buden i very scared leh... i derno if i pierce my ear then *he will angry anot. cos last time i wanted to pierce and he was all against it. but there was once when he said he allow me la. but derno if he mean it anot.. urgh! why do i even care if he allow or don't allow? i'm not his anymore and he's not mine anymore! why should i care? blah. yongen... face up to reality pls! he's not returning! -whatever. i don't care. i will just go ahead and pierce. humf~ i'm hot and bored. yes. i know i should stop praising myself. but whatever la! i'm very hot ok! [whichever meaning u see it. bleh.] bubbuaix la. i'm so siann. bleh. _i'm in love with love Sunday, May 16, 2004
bleh. i sort of know who i'm going to be roomed with for the conference and i don't think i will like it. hurhurx. i'm so dead lorh. i'm not sure if it's her but i think it's her. howw... die liao lerh. i'm sure she will fellowship with me every night and make me very feddup... bleh.....
_i'm in love with love just came back from church. today actually i didn't want to wake up one. then my dad come and scold me. then i very scared of him one. so i had to wake up lorh. haha. ate cheese pancake. very nice! so cheesy. hehe.. hmmx. bro xinsheng's car today derno why when going up the slope that time then suddenly the engine die off. haha. then i over there laughing. hehe. hmmx. in the meeting i keep on playing with my hair. then my mum sms me and ask me to stop playing with my hair. haha. cos she wasn't sitting with me mah. not enough seats. then i sms back say don't sms me la. hehe. then after awhile, i keep staring at her. and she send me "don't stare at me. terrible." haha. cos i was sorta daoing her. hehe. very funny. hmmx. wasn't concentrating in meeting today. my imagination kept running wild. shouldn't have let them run wild.. bleh. hurmx. just now in the car, my kor slapped my mum. haha. so funny sia. and surprisingly, my mum wasn't angry. she was actually laughing and was so sacarstic. wierd sia. maybe she's in a good mood today? hehs. derno.. i'm very hot! [cheryl.. i know. i should stop praising myself right? crazy girl. hehe. but iloveyouu la. becos you're MINE! (:] i mean hot as in stuffy? i derno. haha. i'm sweating like siao lorh. bleh.. no mood to write actually. i feel like dying in this heat.. bleh... _i'm in love with love celestine` cheryl` church` dhuha` eryn` farzana` genevieve` glynis` gourie` hannah` hester` jeremy` jiesi` joy` keyi` kirstie` lap kuan` melodie` m.e.n.d` monk8yz` nadiah` nelson` ngan ching` niners` pauline` peiwen` raihan` ruth` samantha kho` samantha teo` shili` stringe` sze ying` tasia` valarie` vivien` weeling` wendy` yi xiu` yvonne` zhu'en` 050608` 
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