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Saturday, July 31, 2004
ok. this is so damn shitified. i did one whole entry and poof. the thing just disappeared just like that. urghx. freaking irritating manx.
today morning woke up at 9am. bathed then went to cheryl's house to practise violin. ate lunch at her house. the went to gecl to do cip. then at tampines bus interchange, this very tall indian guy came and ask us for donations. and being the nice me, i couldnt bear to say no. so i donated twice becos he kept bugging us. then i wanted to box him. becos he said "donate for your boyfren also la!" freak kaex. made me sad only. urghx. then reach gecl at 12.25pm. left at 3.25am. almost lost my wallet at city hall. i put my wallet down beside me then i walked off and i forgot to take my wallet. hahah. then some guy ran up to me, tapped me on my shoulder and returned me my wallet. lucky manx. haha. or else i'll be losing two important things in two days. siao lorh. haha. then met jingfang at church. went for meeting. then seperated into upper and lower groups. after that had love feast. ate loads of pasta. yummy! then was fighting with jingfang for the pasta. lols. then yvonne made a comment about me not eating during conference and eating so much now. then she said becos the eating partner different. lols. true lorh. haha. then after eat finish, read my book. then lilian and sheery and sis alice cuz whom i forget the name though i usually rmb came over and looked at my violin. lols. so cute lorh. haha. then clean up. didnt do anything cept look at lilian wiping the tables. haha. then accompanied her to the dustbin the throw away the trash. the dustbin stinks like hell manx. lols. then went home with jingfang and esther. had loads of flash backs in the mrt. feeling sad. sighh. then there was this group of cute guys. but none of them managed to capture my attention though. all my mind can think of is him. sigh. missing him so so much. then took bus home. he didnt come for meeting today. i'm so scared he has another gf already. it's only been 3months+ since we broke up. i really derno how he managed to stop loving me so fast. i still love him so much. and it's all my fault we broke up. cos i initiated the break up. i dont even know why i did that cos i loved him so much. from the time i set eyes on him, till now, i've never ever stopped loving him before. the only thing i really regretted is breaking up with him when i love him so much. i'm breaking into pieces now. he doesn't seem to care anymore. oh yea. he hates me now. i'm sure of that. i really miss him so much... come back wont you? is it so hard to love me again? i really need u in my life. i'm falling apart now.. missing your kisses. missing your hugs. missing your touch. missing your love. missing everything about you.. //yea. everything about you. including your bad points. _i'm in love with love  Friday, July 30, 2004
oh yea. in the prev entry i said "goodbye hp" right? yea. really goodbye manx. i lost it today. sighsighsigh. freak that idiot who has no life and went to take my hp. arse hole manx. but yea. i dont miss my hp. i just miss my picutres that were in the hp and i miss my sim card! sighsigh. so idiotic onex. sighsighsigh. blahx. and the most blah thing is that the hp is my mum's one and it's nokia 7250i and it costs $700++. urghx. pissified now. it's the first time i lose my hp. and i hate the feeling. humf.
hmmm. ytd first period was lit. so sian again. sigh. was reading the book. not listening to teacher. lols. and i realised that actually roll of thunder hear my cry is actually a kinda nice book to read. but the black english sucks like hell. cos it makes me think that the writer derno how to write in proper english. haha. then had mother tongue. wasn't listening. studying history. then becos of some people, ms chan got angry. then she was stomping her foot. make me have goosebumps. lols. then later she apologised for scolding us. what rubbish lorh. want to scold then scold like mdm seah. where got people scold then apologise one? so stupid. urghx. i dont like her la. blehx. then had pe. ran 2.4km. run until out of breathe manx. so tiring lorh! but at least i got run all the rounds. as in i didnt walk one whole complete round. but i had to run an extra round. becos farzana didnt record one of the rounds. then i was so shocked that i had to run one more round becos i counted and i ran finish lerh. then i so shock until i cried. then i didnt even run that last round. i was just walking and crying lorh. and i vomitted twice. sighsigh. then also had difficulty breathing. haix. then the people running the 2nd half one, they ran past me and they were all very nice la. ask me not to give up. but i was crying mah. so no strength to run lerh. then i just walked slowly back. then i sat down and cried. thanks weewing for comforting me yea? (: was crying becos it's unfair to me that i had to run an extra round mah. haix. and farzana.. dont worry. i dont blame you. not at all. seriously. (: then ms tan came and comfort me also. she asked me questions la. then yea. in the end it was so obvious i ran an extra round becos 1st round i ran 1 min+. second round 4 min. 3rd round 11min. 4th round 15 min. 5th round 18 min. then six round i derno what la. then between second round and third round diff of 7 mins lorh. even if i walk one whole round also wont take 7 mins. and if i didnt rmb wrongly, i think when i ran the 3rd round, i heard 8 mins+. so, yea. got some errors lorh. and yuni, tasia and cheryl can be eye witnesses. cos actually they were infront of me. then i caught up with them. then sometimes i infront, sometimes i behind. but we were around the same lorh. so, yea. in the end ms tan tell me that she will take my 5th round the timing. but i still not satisfied with that timing also. so i'm gonna run again next week and also next next week and get my best timing. haha. i aiming for silver mah. cos i very unhappy about last year. cos of standing board jump which i missed by 1cm to get D, i couldn't get my silver. sigh. if i got that, it would be my first silver ever lorh. hehe. hmmm. then went for recess. didnt eat. went to class to do last minute study. changed under teacher's table again. hehe. then had history exam. forgot every single thing i learnt. haix. i think i flunked it. for the source based questions, i dont even know what i was writing about. sighsigh. then had english. did compre. very sian. didnt really understand what i was reading. lols. then science lab. dont rmb what we did. but must be something very sian la. hahax. then after school went with tasia and sarah and hannah for cip. pei li and si min were there also. i did two hours only then i didn't do liao. actually supposed to go for violin lesson. but i didn't want to go. so never go lorh. stayed in the library for one more hour lorh. hahax. then this group of guys and this group of cheong cheng people were like about to fight lidat. then so scary lorh. i think it started cos one of the guys thought that one of the other guy from cheong cheng daoed him or what. quite scary. newaes. i saw that group of guys on wednesday also. hahax. saw them twice. lols. i rmbed them cos on wed, they got scolded by the librarian. hahax. then after that went home. bought loads of titbits. reached home at 7pm. then ate. bathed. then went for tuition. had a test on mesuaration. then did some other stuffs. then went home. was raining. ran all the way home. hehe. today the same prefect, isabel, said "school attention, the school song" again. haha. but this time even cuter. she said that then immediately after the school song she said the national anthem in a rush. hahax. so cute lorh. hehs. then first period was mother tongue. was sleeping. joy also. haha. seriously sleeping lorh. haha. then had english. went through the comprehension. then listened to the radio for the debate thingie. then had enrichment. whee. i can rollarblade now. lols. then very funny. cos there was once, i was going forwards and i couldnt stop. and i was about to fall down. then derno what happened, i started running on the skates to the wall. haha. really running lorh. and derno why i didnt fall down. haha. i wasnt skating anyway. was running. yea. then skated. actually not skate la. was walking. or marching. and gliding. hahax. then there was once when i fell down. actually going to fall backwards one. then derno why when i screamed and flinged my hand, i bent forward and fell on my knees. hahax. weewing also lidat. hahax. she still can bounch when she hit the floor. haha. so cute onex. lols. after that went to canteen. washed my hands and knees. cos very disgusting. very smelly. haha. then went back to class. went to toilet to change. then slacked in class. after that had legacy. did nothing much. then had art. mdm seah was scolding me and i didnt even bother to listen to her. hahax. so tupid onex. then had history. did the group presentation thingie. didnt even prepare. haha. so everyone was unprepared so no difference lorh. haha. cept for the malays. cant believe they actually did research on it. lols. so hardworking onex. haha. after school went for cip with cheryl. shelved books. and i realised i lost my hp. so idiotic. didnt cry though. was on the verge of crying. but i didnt want to cry la. haha. asked around if anyone has seen a hp. no one had. so went to report loss to the library. wrote down details of the hp. but not much detail also. just that it's a maroon nokia 7250i and when the right arrow is pressed, it makes a squeeky noise. haha. then nothing much lorh. went home after that. copied down all the numbers in my hp. then i called most of the people to inform them that i lost my hp. hahax. then listened to radio. then watched tv. then came to blog lorh. hahax.. sighness. lucky i still have my hp. but i want my sim card! i want my pics! sighsigh. but i should have lost my hp instead. becos it's more cheap then my mum's one. sigh. but it's newer also. haiya. i shouldnt have lost any of it la. sighsigh. _i'm in love with love Wednesday, July 28, 2004
sigh. i realised that i wasn't fat at all last time. just a chubby face. then the rest were average. so there's no more excuse for the size i am now except for mac!! lols. i'm so sadded already. why did i eat mac. i shouldnt have. then i would have stayed the size i was. sigh.
hp bills for june just came. i exceeded like siao. yet again. 1725 smses. what the heck. who did i sms. i dont even know. sigh. must be becos i keep sending people the wrong messages. stupid me. haix. bill's $120.07 including GST. but it's unfair. cos mummy used my hp to dial for NKF. tupid. haix. but even if deducted, it'll still be $90++. i'm so gonna die if i dont control myself. oh yeah! i know what to do! i shall throw my hp away! hahaha. yea right. as if i'll do that. i wont mind doing that but since i didnt buy my hp, i cant do that. lols. but i wont die without my hp. i can live without it. just that i wont know what's the time anymore. lols. i dont like smsing people anymore anyway. and i dont talk on my hp. unless it's important or that person called me. i think july's bill wont be high. i hope not anyway. if it's high, i'm really gonna ask mummy to confiscate my hp. becos it was confiscated for half a month. if it's high, it's really terrible cos only half a month i used my hp. so tupid onex. haix. but i dont gib a damn anyway. hehe. (: goodbye hp! i'm so gonna miss you! like so not. _i'm in love with love tiredd. haix. ): dreamt of him again last night. went to school in the morning. dhuha called me WEN. hmmm. funny funny. lols. then first period was history. sianness. was doing maths hw under mrs yeo's nose. haha. she didnt even scold me. sooooo nice. and i'm like the history rep? lols. wierdo* then had maths. went through hw. then did the maths exam paper thingie. didnt bring. i dont even know where it is lorh. haha. then had lit. sianness. was supposed to do some mind mapping. but i was just reading the book and highlighting it. haha. then had recess. then science lab. did some experiment. roy g biv. everyone must rmb this formula for the colours of the rainbow arh! haha. whatever. siao lerh. =X then had english. debating. we were shouting at each other lorh. haha. so funny onex. but at least i also got contribute a lil bit. but i think they also nv hear. only mdm haryati heard i think. haha. it was a very stupid debate la. to me it's stupid and lame. and we still have to write an article on the debate. so stupid one. haix. then had assembly. whee. nicey nice. (: had briefing for national day. didnt know they actually allowed us to wear red and white. lols. so now i derno whether to wear ethnic clothings or red and white. if wear white and red, i think i'll wear my white op skirt which i've never worn before and it costed me a bomb and a red blouse if i can find one. lols. cos not supposed to wear "loud" tees. so i cant wear my op red tee. i think. cos the op international at the front looks kinda "loud" bah. hmmm. derno la. then had the harp appreciation. so nice lorh! there are only 3 harpists in singapore. there's one in SNYO. then she's one. so i've only never met another one of them. lols. i also wanna learn the harp! the sound is so damn soothing lorh. can relief stress one. haha. if i learn the harp, then i'll be the 4th harpist in singapore! lols. cool manx. (: and i think it's kinda easy. i think. hmmm. then after that went back to class to do duty. then went for CIP. with cheryl. shelved books. so sian onex. then went back. after that, went for piano class. my last piano class. whee. but i'm really gonna miss my teacher. -sigh- she's sucha nice teacher lorh.. haix haix. bro went first. then i fell asleep. too tired lerh. then my turn. played my exam pieces. i think my 2nd piece play too fast lerh. haix. then scales. scales play like shit. contary motion also play like shit. at least my cromatic scales the best. hahax. arpejios not bad la. then diminished 7th take very long to think whether to start playing anot lorh. haha. then had aural. eeks. my singing sucks. so disgusting. haha. so paiseh also. haix. then blah blah. then went home lerh. oh yea. she said good luck to me for my history test tml. so nice right? sighh. hmmm. bro going back for his last lesson on saturday. i think i'll buy her a present. hehe. she's really a very nice teacher. been teaching me since 3years old when i started learning at yamaha. haha. 10 years liao lorh. haix. whee. just now was looking at pics. so nice! i look so damn cute when i was younger. unlike now. hehs. my didi looks soooooooooooooooo damn adorable pls! now he just looks like a pile of shit. LOL. xp then i was laughing at the pics. laughing at myself. lols. so funny. i love the pics i took at europe. they rawked. (: better print my english poem now. it's been due since last wednesday i think. haix. lazy me again. hehs. xp oh yea. piano exam's in one weeks time. i failed. sigh. haven't even take the exam yet and i failed already. shitt. ): _i'm in love with love Tuesday, July 27, 2004
so damn sian pls. haix. i'm bored to tears. bleh. cant sleep. not cant sleep la. i dowan to sleep. though my eyes are chao tired. bleh. i'm just feeling so damn sad now. cos i'm thinking bout stuffs. and naturally, think and think and even if not thinking about him in the first place, also will end up thinking about him which will make me hurt.. haix.. sadded. ):
justgoawayandleavemealonebecosidontwanttoloveyouanymore. ijustwanttoforgetyounow. ithurtssomuchtoloveyou.. yea. that's my msn nick. though i dont really mean it. cept for the last sentence. real true.. haix. _i'm in love with love went to eat after school. ate maggi mee. yum~ it rawks! (: then ate putu mayam. or whatever that is. and it's so damn nice lorh! whee. (: me and weeling and cheryl were talking. haha. about some not nice stuffs. lols. and yea. we all agree on two stuffs. we don't like her and her. hahaha. xp shhhh. cant say. lols. then eat halfway and tasia and hannah and dhuha came and joined us. then after awhile, they left. then me and cheryl and weeling were talking and talking. then talked about some stufs stuffs. hmmmm. talked about telepaty also. haha. then derno what else la. but very funny lorh. and then i also keep on saying "ohmygoodness. so cute!" haha. or something ldiat la. everything's cute. lols. cute cute cute. including me! hahaha. xp jkjk. then weeling left. me and cheryl went to library. read comics. then went for string. prof wilkinson and that female teacher like quarreling lidat. i think it's cos she didnt photocopy stuffs or didnt prepare stuffs for the lesson or she came very late. hmmm. derno. dont care also. haha. lesson was kinda fun today. i think. but my fingers hurt like siao. blister. bleh. then after lesson, me and hannah were playing cannon in D. fun fun. then i played my exam pieces. the C piece was cute. hehe. after that, i left. saw lois and she was wearing this mini dress i think. so sexy lorh! haha. then i got onto my dad's car. suddenly i realised i didn't bring my violin down with me. so blur lorh! haha. then i ran all the way up to the fourth floor again. then i over there laughing and laughing. haha. then went down and went home lerh lorh. whee. maths ca is on 04082004. and me and phoebe got piano exam on that day. so we dunid to take. actually if maths is before the last period, i will have to take. but just nice that day maths is the last period. lols. cos i have to leave school during the last period. hahaha. actually we very happy one la. then mdm lenny say we have to take before the rest of them lorh. so stupid. haix. take after them better. haha. xp _i'm in love with love hmmm. ytd after school went to pp. in the bus me and dhuha were talking about trigonomatrical stations. in the end, we derno what is the correct pronouncation. haha. so we decided to stick with triganomal station. or something lidat. haha. but it was wrong la.. ate at mac. then this gay came over and sold us expansive mineral water. lols. *looks at dhuha* haha. funny manx. newaes. he was saying something like we very nice cos we let him sit. and i started laughing. and i said in giggles "but is you ownself come and sit down one what. we never ask u to sit leh." haha. and he very bhb one lorh. haix. gay gay. lols. then bought bbtea. yumm. love it so much. haha. then went back to school. kept laughing and laughing becos of the expansive mineral water that has smell and the pink one can only be drunk be girls. lols. it was damn funny manx. then had string. so sian. haix. then went to watch the redcross people play bball. then went to hall for some stupid briefing. mrs loke's speech was so damn boring canx. i fell asleep lorh. haha. then mrs chia's speech was alright bah. haha. then had the questions and stuffs. so sian onex. hmmm. my parents wanted to talk to the teacher. derno which one la. but i assumed that they wanted to talk to mdm haryati. since i couldn't see her, i just said she left lerh. haha. cos i also dowan them to talk to her. lols. then went home. and a lecture in the car. so blah onex. my parents are so damn bias can. they only notice my wrong doings and not my right ones. stupid stupid.humf. i hate them so much. (>_<) hmmm. had some wierd dream last night. made me cry cry cry. ): then came to school. first period was english. had debate. so boring one. haix. then had science. almost fell asleep. lols. lucky i sitting at the back of the class for science lab. hahax. then chinese. sian sian. then recess. ate.. newaes. i wanna say something. sorry sarah and cheryl i didnt let u cut queue! not that i dowan. i was just joking with you all about asking the people behind if u can cut. didnt thought that you'll take it seriously. haix. sorry sorry. =X then next was maths. sianness again. then history. did some stupid stuff. then now com studies lorh. haha.. and yea. i cant stand that idiot. such a copy cat. and weeling! you forgot to add something. she copy your book. copy your design. then copy the pen can draw on the nails one. then copy my markers. haix.. have to leave the lab lerh. bubbuaix.. _i'm in love with love Monday, July 26, 2004
hmm. i have real cute juniors manx. haha. ytd was talking to them online. then they started calling each other fruits. then i became a fruit too. lols. i'm grape!! haha. very lame la. then almost 3/4 the time i derno what they talking lorh. hahaha. so funny onex. =X
went to school. still in school now la. hahax. hmmm. first period was maths. whee. i did my hw ok. haha. first time lorh. lols. then did some stuffs. didn't have spring test! whee. then science. did some experiments. so stupid one. don't even know what i was doing. haha. then had mother tongue. was talking about the streaming thingie. asked loads of questions to stall for time. cos we dowan tingxie mah. but in the end we still had tingxie. then teacher say until so fast. i so pissed off with her that i didn't even write a single word. ok la. i got write abit la. then i dowan write anymore. might as well give her one whole blank paper. cos she mark is like if the thing one word wrong, then the whole thing wrong. so might as well dont write anything lorh. bleh. so stupid onex. then had recess. though i got $30 in my wallet, i didn't use it. borrowed $1 from sarah to eat. haha. all becos of someone. saving up money to buy his present. haha. then had mep mep. ms ee didnt come. went for choral festival i think. watched fantasia 2000. i like the noah's ark that one! very nice. very sweet one. (: then watched yamakasi. it's in french. haha. it's a very cool show lorh. very funny. and exciting. and interesting. and amusing. it's shiok. hahax. very very very very nice! hehehe. then when ms lau came in for music, i think she was wondering if we understood what they were talking. lols. actually i think only eryn understood it abit. becos she studies french. then the rest of us were reading the subtitles. hehe. then had music. did the "Doo! Doo! Chuka Chuka Doo!" thingie. very lame la. haha. so stupid one. haix.. then now in com lab. later got string. so sian. after string still got the streaming talk. sighness. it's so stupid. blahx. boreded. haha. i like the "ed" thingie. hehehe. it sounds cute. just like me! lols. so bhb. xp _i'm in love with love Sunday, July 25, 2004
went to church in the morning. after that stayed for love feast. jingfang kept helping me take fishballs. then i eat until so full. haha. eat fishball only leh. lols. then went home. lynette came over. cos her mum forgot to give her the keys. then she cannot go home lorh. so funny. bro's fren came too. bleh. but now lynette went home lerh. then bro and his fren go down to fetch another fren. sighsigh. i'm so sian now. nothing to do! shall go play sims. hehe. bubbuaix..
_i'm in love with love celestine` cheryl` church` dhuha` eryn` farzana` genevieve` glynis` gourie` hannah` hester` jeremy` jiesi` joy` keyi` kirstie` lap kuan` melodie` m.e.n.d` monk8yz` nadiah` nelson` ngan ching` niners` pauline` peiwen` raihan` ruth` samantha kho` samantha teo` shili` stringe` sze ying` tasia` valarie` vivien` weeling` wendy` yi xiu` yvonne` zhu'en` 050608` 
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